I need to be free

I feel suffocated, confined, in a dark hole. I am my own slave because of fear. But now i need to be free, free from the fear of whats ahead. Im drowning and cant breath. I simply need to get out, the only way out for me is myself. Im happy at this moment in time and its because im not in this supposed jail, but its only for a few days until im back again to the vicious circle. I hate it the whole experience and the feeling. But this too shall come to pass:)